I don't what made me think of this other than the song currently playing but... I love my nieghbors. They remind me of my family. I grew up in pretty much the totally oppisite world but they remind me that we're all basically the same.
They scream at each other daily. The mom/grandma threatens to take them out of this world or get them locked up daily. The dad is is mechanic who never seems to be home, but is loved. There is an older daughter living there trying to strengthen her wings and fly the coop with ther little boy and all the power struggles that come with those kinds of situations. There is another daughter and two other grandchildren around the same age. The kids are your average good "bad kids."
Two of my favorite moments so far:
+On Christmas morning 2009 I could hear the little girl screaming at the top of her lungs as she discovered a Nintendo DS under the tree. She was screaming: "Praise you Lord Jesus, Thank you, thank you, thank you." Blindfolded I would have been able to tell you if I was at home or at a Church of God campmeeting. It helped warm my December heart.
+The day Michael Jackson died I watched as the pulled into thier spot. The same girl had the most beautiful smile on her face as she sang his "PYT." She's maybe 11. Michael Jackson had never been acceptable, until that moment, in her lifetime and she was unabashedly celebrating him. I think for the rest of my life when I hear that song I will see that smile in the back of my mind. That thought alone makes me never want to experience Alzheimer's disease.
I'm seeing now that both these stories are really about her. I see myself in her I guess.
/random thoughts
Thursday, February 25, 2010
We are intrepid. We carry on.
I've been feeling like blogging a lot more lately. I've missed my words. They've been in my head, but they haven't been here. They belong here and with you.
I find myself in a familiar place again. I'm not sure if I'm in the right place, so I've been looking for a meaningful and logical diversion. I started an Accounting degree in a technical college after having trouble finding a Social Work job and discovering a great love for all things Accounting. I love accounting itself. I just think I'm ready to really graduate. I want to work. I want to work in accounting. I've always been a student. I will always be a student. I want to leave the world of formal education and enroll in the school of the world. The politics and bueracracy of acedemia have finally frayed my nerves and I have finally found something I am naturally good enough at that I don't think I need to sit in class to learn it. The world is currently dissagreeing with me, but I know someone out there will see my passion, trust it, and give me a chance.
Maybe I'm being a bit melodramatic about the whole thing, but I feel like either I started this track too late or its a waste of time. I thought I had it planned out pretty well. I just realized that I based my plans on some bad brochures. I assumed the tech school would be a cheaper and more career oriented way to start. What I didn't know was that this school isn't as keen on internships as most tech schools I'm familar with, I'll only be able to transfer two classes to the Bachelor's degree, and these classes don't count toward the hours I need for my CPA. Fail.
I'm doing very well in the classes (except one) and I love what I'm learning, but it all feels impractical. I registered for another full load next quarter, but I'm reconsidering it. I don't want to transfer just yet to the 4 year school. But as I type this I realize I probably should. I want to bring an income home.
In a perfect world, I'd have an interview when I checked the answering machine tonight. I'd be hired next week. I'd finish these classes. Drop next semester. Get comfortable with my awesome new job's work load. Apply to 4 year school. Take a few online classes at a time. Get my CPA and conquer the world. But its not a perfect world. I can't justify staying at home searching for a job without credentials next quarter or transeferring and spending that much more $$$ on this degree. I also highly, highly dread another semester at this school. But I digress.
I am intrepid. I carry on.
I find myself in a familiar place again. I'm not sure if I'm in the right place, so I've been looking for a meaningful and logical diversion. I started an Accounting degree in a technical college after having trouble finding a Social Work job and discovering a great love for all things Accounting. I love accounting itself. I just think I'm ready to really graduate. I want to work. I want to work in accounting. I've always been a student. I will always be a student. I want to leave the world of formal education and enroll in the school of the world. The politics and bueracracy of acedemia have finally frayed my nerves and I have finally found something I am naturally good enough at that I don't think I need to sit in class to learn it. The world is currently dissagreeing with me, but I know someone out there will see my passion, trust it, and give me a chance.
Maybe I'm being a bit melodramatic about the whole thing, but I feel like either I started this track too late or its a waste of time. I thought I had it planned out pretty well. I just realized that I based my plans on some bad brochures. I assumed the tech school would be a cheaper and more career oriented way to start. What I didn't know was that this school isn't as keen on internships as most tech schools I'm familar with, I'll only be able to transfer two classes to the Bachelor's degree, and these classes don't count toward the hours I need for my CPA. Fail.
I'm doing very well in the classes (except one) and I love what I'm learning, but it all feels impractical. I registered for another full load next quarter, but I'm reconsidering it. I don't want to transfer just yet to the 4 year school. But as I type this I realize I probably should. I want to bring an income home.
In a perfect world, I'd have an interview when I checked the answering machine tonight. I'd be hired next week. I'd finish these classes. Drop next semester. Get comfortable with my awesome new job's work load. Apply to 4 year school. Take a few online classes at a time. Get my CPA and conquer the world. But its not a perfect world. I can't justify staying at home searching for a job without credentials next quarter or transeferring and spending that much more $$$ on this degree. I also highly, highly dread another semester at this school. But I digress.
I am intrepid. I carry on.
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